'Twas The Day Before Christmas...

... that my grandmother on my moms' side past away. Got the news in the early morning, well, my dad did, i only knew bout it when i woke up at around 11. She was 89. Guess it did not come as a shock to us cos she has been in ICU for at least 10 days with cancer and the doctors sayin everything now is 50-50. While no doubt all of us are sad that she is no longer with us, but i suppose we should also be happy that she led a happy life and manage to achieve almost everything in life a woman of her age n generation could possibly achieve. Successful children, even more successful grandchildren and even great grand kids. We all loved her even though many of us weren't that close to her (myself in particular). She has been overseas to england as well as Australia and countless trips to China. And oh, did i mention she is a mother to 15 children? And the best part was, she could recognize and remember each n everyone of her grandchildren and great grandchildren!!

Don't think she has any regrets in life. She was always happy, and always active and always going visiting her kids every now n then. Don't remember her having any health complications before. And i certainly doubt that she would want us to be sad or depressed at this time. One good thing is at the time of her passing, most of her children are either in malacca or Kl and the ones from overseas have already flown down. And most of my cousins are also back on holidays. So i guess she chose a good time to leave. With everyone by her side. Guess its a way for her to say "keep the family bond strong". Cos when it all boils down, its family tat will always be there for each other.

I don't know how much a part i'll be involved with the funeral ceremonies as this time round , i'm part of the in-laws. The past 2 funerals i've been to are both from my dads side so can say i was quite bz then. But i suppose i won't be free for the next few days, 3-5 in fact. So sorry la dudes, if got any plans during this time , i don't think i can make it. Gotta respect. As for now, i'm still waiting for the news from the people in kl to see wat plans or preparations will have to be made.

So i guess that pretty much sums up 2006 for me la. More downs then ups this time round. Although i'll touch more bout that when i review my year.

Hmmm.. other than that, nothin much goin on.. malacca is partially flooded but due to that, alot of roads have been closed so its pretty hard to get around town or even out of my taman during the day and early night. Oh, also wanna say thanks Kat for ur gift! really like it! Yet to use it though! hehe..

Well, hope that in 2007 there will be a change in tide. That remains to be seen. Again, Merry Christmas 2 everyone!! And Happy Holidays!!

What A Weekend!

Last weekend i think was the most fun i've had all year round in kl. Lets see, on saturday, my roommate n me went to Rock The World 7!! And on sunday the two of us plus another 2 friends went on a 1 day road trip to..... Malacca!!

Well, starting with the former, for those who dont know, Rock The World 7 is a rock (wat else rite) concert featuring 48 (+2 singaporeans) malaysian bands jamming it out from 3pm to nearly 12 on 3 stages in 1 stadium!. *Pause to catch breath*. I wouldn't say its the best of malaysian bands since bands like Disagree, Deja Voodoo Spells n Frequency Cannon didn't perform amongst others. But with a line up like Pop Shuvit, Love Me Butch, Lo, Dragon Red, Tempered Mental n OAG amongst others playin, it will be a stupid thing to miss out rite? (actually, seeing Lo on the list of performers itself was enough to get me goin :D) Esp since the tickets cost only 25 bucks plus u get 1 t-shirt (which aaron [my roommate] was so happy to get XD), 3 ringgit of talk time on i talk and i was really lucky to be one of those who manage to catch not 1 but 2 flyin CDs being tossed by the artist themselves!!

We arrived at the stadium bout 1 hour b4 d show , took lrt and had to walk bout 2km to the stadium (great way to excersice :P) and once we were in was quite surprised to see Staduim Merdeka so.. well.. small... or was it maybe all the tents n equipment on the field that made it look small. Anyway, had a pleasent surprise early on, j.lo actually tapped my shoulder and talked to me! Well, actually all he said was "hey dude, watcha doin here ?, need anything?" n i was "urm.. urm.. we are waiting for my friends cousin at the VIP gates" n thn he was "oh ok, VIP gate is over the other side.. u guys enjoy the show yea!". Actually we were standing at an enterance, want to wait for my roommates cousin , but actually not suppose stand there, and Lo is like the organizer of this whole event, so b4 the show, he's like walkin around with a walkie talkie n makin sure everything is in order. haha... Didn't get to snap a pic of him cos i dont have a camera :( .. dang.. gotta add tat to my wish list.

So long story short, the show rocked la. But the people there.. aih.. duno where do i begin. Really get to see the malay culture man.. i think 80% of the audience are malays.. They come dressed in their goth, punk, rhastafarian clothes n attitude... really lemah man. But like aaron said la, if they don't support the music scence, who will rite? Given that although most of em are here to just jump around n shove each other like monkeys jackasses, if they didnt turn up, i think half the stadium would be empty. Oh well, gotta expect this rite.. at least no one got hurt ( i think). There's a band, Broken Scar , they are really good!! have their cd (one tht i got for free) . And they sound really cool!!.. Su ling, i think u'll like them since u so into Frequency Cannon n all.. :D. Well, we left the rock show at around 11+ with 3 bands yet to perform cos we scared the lrt would've close if we left any later. Too bad didn't get to see OAG play.. Guess theres time for at next time la.

Rite, so after came back, yum cha, cakap cakap, had about 5 hours of sleep b4 we went on our roadtrip. Was fun as well, ate breakfast, lunch n dinner there. Brought my friends to A'Farmosa (which there were some 'interesting' photos taken XD), Jonker Street to buy stuff (which they pasterd me to bring them to my aunts shop which i did and they got discount summore.. :D btw, i'm not sayin that i didn't wanna bring u guys there la.. i would've anyways, if not why i mention dat my aunt has a store there rite :)) . Wanted to go Stadhyus but it was rainin.. so had to cancel dat part.. so where did we go whn it rained?? haha.. go play pool at senyum! lolz.. As usual for lunch went to eat chiken rice balls and for dinner went to eat satay celup. Till this very day, i wonder why KL got no one sell satay celup. N lok lok is NOT satay celup ya...

So after dinner, we headed straight home with a damn full stomach. 3 meals weh.. all heavy ones summore.. haha. guess its the holiday season (not for me though) so nvm la rite.. hehe.. *goin on a diet d* . Only thing to spoil the mood during the weekend was both Man Utd and Barcelona lost.. and Chelsea won.. cipet.. -.-'' . Oh, champions league draw.. lookin 4ward for Barca vs Liverpool since almost everyone in my condo tat i mix wit supports liverpool and i'm the sole barca supporter!

Anyways, i'll be back this thursday till the 3rd (sendiri take holiday). So those of u from outstation wanna come visit me, ya'll most certainly welcome. To those back home d, u know the drill ;) . Don't know if i'll be going frazers this christmas, was suppose to , but with my grandma's health condition in a bad shape (accordin to mom n aunt) , we may not make it this year :(. But who knows rite.. it is the time for miracles :).

Guess i'd be signing off since i have class awhile more.. cheers!

It's The Season To Be Jolly!!

Fa la la la la lala la la.. u know how it goes. Christmas isn't celebrated BIG here as we all already know but it would be nice to have dat lil christmas spirit in all of us no? But as always, the shoppin malls are all decorated really urm.. christmassy i should say. GIANT christmas trees, fake snow houses, a black dude being Santa. U get the idea. But thn, duno why, i'm always in a good mood during this time of year even if its always blardy hot or blardy rainin all d time. lol.

I know its abit early to be making my christmas wish list (and its practically pointless since not like 'santa' will give me everythin on it) but here it is anyway , so dear santa, for christmas i would really want :

1) a new acoustic guitar

2) good quality earphones for my mp3 player

3) 500 GB (ok ok at least 250 GB) internal hard disk with external casing

4) jessica alba to be my bride .. ahhahaha..

Ok ok.. just the 3 nia. the forth is like those 'things dat would never happen in ur life' XD. Anyway was back in malacca last weekend. Met up with the people back home. Lets see.. yum cha-ed with don, leo n su ling on thursday. Don, u really need a haircut lar.. be it rocker or not :P. Played futsal with the guys on friday nite. Luckily i decieded to bring back my futsal shoes. 2 hours of non stop action. All i got from it was a badly gashed leg due to carpet burn. lol.

Other thn dat, din do much during the weekend. Thanks su ling for sendin me to the bus station on sunday.. summore use shortcut go there.. i was like 'wuuu... so fast can reach central. in like 10 min.. from my house to central. Wanted to belanja makan A&W wan... but mana tau.. ada orang pai seh pula.. lolz.

Ah well, 12 more days to christmas. Then it will be 7 days to the new year. Then it will be 26 days till i turn 21 ! :D . Time really does fly this year. Though i'll probably post a review of the year post later on in d month. Who knows, still got time for stuff to happen rite?

Rite.. beginning to feel that i'm crappin out of boredom liao. Oh, there were people telling me that wat i said in my previous post isnt right/too over and it probably is, but i told them, tis is how i flow. No holes barred. Hope they understand. haha.. anything other thn pure bluntness wouldn't be me rite? u ppl think i should tone it down a lil?

Once again.. Happy holidays to u folks out there!

Every Drama Has Its Finale..

Well, since the recent happenings in my life has been compared to korean dramas by Faye, Yong n Dee, now, i wanna say dat finally the final episode of the series has been concluded last week. No more next season folks. It got yanked of the air like some bad drama series :P. You know, for the first time in my 20 yrs (well, 20 yrs n 11 months) of having friends, this is the first time that i lost trust and respect for someone. And i guess that means we aren't friends anymore la although that was NOT my call.

Ok ok.. wat happened was this (the final episode) : yes, its still regarding THAT girl and THAT guy. Names not need to mention la cos if i did, u wouldn't know who also, and if u do anyway, u probably know who i'm talkin about already. Rite, there was this one day, me and the girl decided to go watch a movie (as friends) and of cos she inevitably called that guy along la. Not dat i mined of cos since we were all friends rite?? Well, then the night before the day we're suppose to go see the movie, the guy told me he wasn't able to make it as his long time friends are coming up to kl to meet him the same day and he asked me to go wit the girl only la. Then about 3 am the girl pula sms me saying she was sick and also couldn't make it the next day. Not buying it one bit, i asked if this was because the guy wasn't going but she said she was really sick. Ask me to believe her summore. Fine, gave her the benefit of the doubt and canceled the movie plan.

But the next day, as i was getting ready to leave for class, she popped up in my unit with the guy, didn't even say hi or anything, just went straight into the guy's room n locked d door (God only knows wat they do inside, i did once, it was a sin) . WTF man, if she was really sick, she'd be at her OWN home resting rite? Wanna come here and infect others is it? Of cos i didn't say anything cos i already know i wasn't gonna get a straight honest answer. But i was like nvm la, maybe got sum logic behind it. Was expecting a msg to at least explain wtf was goin on, but as i'd second guessed, it never came.

The day after dat, around noon i think, the guy went out of the house and i asked where was he going, he said to return cds to friend. Ok lo, return cd yes, but the time he got back was around 7 with a printer in one hand. Then he said he went to PC fair with another friend living few floors below us. Haha.. my roommate was tu lan-ed cos he promised my roommate that he would go wit him to PC fair the next day ( well, he did kept his promise and went again the next day). Then, later on dat nite, we ( the guy, me, my roommate) went down to look for dat friend to go dinner with. Then i said to him , "wah, go pc fair never call la". Then his face terus blur. He was like " pc fair? wat pc fair? i didn't go pc fair, i was sleepin la" . Then i turned and ask the guy "weh, u go pc fair with who? the girl is it??" and he just kept quiet. I know u all also know wat dat means rite? Now now, its not wrong dat he goes pc fair with her. But don't forget, she was suppose to be 'sick' and resting. 1 day already recover? amazing... and if we were still friends at that time, wouldn't she have told me she was alright already? Sick my ass man.. strike 2.

The following day, i woke up quite early ( 9 am liddat) cos of the goddamn drilling at the unit above us. Walked out and saw the girl (again!!) walking into the guy's room and closing the door. It was as if i wasn't even there, no good mornin or hi. Well, not like i give a shit anyway.. so i msg-ed my roommate sayin dat person is here again wit the door locked and i asked if i should get back my phone from her ( i borrowed her my old phone temporarily cos her phone got stolen). And my roommate replied me to go ahead and said he was sick with all this nonsense. So i msg-ed her to leave the phone in the house b4 she leaves and my roommate msg-ed the guy telling him to stop bringing the girl over as it was causing trouble to everyone and he should respect his girlfriend. Yes, to those who don't know, he has a girlfriend already, yet god only knows wat he is doing with this. This was the day lost my trust in someone. Well, dat girl only actually.

So the phone was returned and my roommate gave him some words of advice. He apologized and he said so did the girl. One would think with an apology, he would respect my roommates decision and not allow the girl to come here anymore. But nooo... next day nia, the girl came AGAIN! and same as the day after ! fuck. u call this sorry ar? It's no different then a rapist sayin he is sorry for his crime and next day after his release from prison, goes and rape another victim. At first i thought i should go and give that guy a piece of my mind, but think think think, no need la, he is mature enough (3 yrs older thn me ok) to think of wats right and wats not. Dat was when i lost my respect in someone.

Well, u may keep wondering why i make such a fuss about closed/locked doors rite? Well, it is because the last time this happened, he said if the girl would to come into his room again, he would leave the door open so that nothing funny will happen. So door open = nothing happen, door closed = u do the math. Not that i don't wanna give them the benefit of the doubt that nothin is goin on, but i have a fuckin strong reason to believe otherwise.

Rite, so i guess all of that meant that me and her no longer friends lo. Don't care anyway, i really hate it when someone goes behind my back. If u say u are sick, stay home n be sick, not go gallivanting for 4 days straight. And everyday also come our house. She said it like 3-4-5 times dat she is not gonna bother about the guy anymore. But again, she does the exact opposite, well its her life, wat she wanna do is non of my concern, it was whn i still cared about her, but that feeling also went out the window along with trust and respect. Actually i think it takes 2 to clap la. Even if she still wanna pin on to him , if the guy tak layan her, u would think she'd be smart enough to get the message rite? But i guess the guy also gatal, 1 girl not enough. That goes to show that some people don't have a strong will power and are too weak till they give in to temptation. So as a conclusion, I'm not giving a fuck anymore about the girl or the guy if his problems has anything to do with her. There, done, finally got ending. It may not be a happy one but at least there wont be anymore suffering. And i am actually happy. Should've done this a long time ago.

U people know me rite, i would never do this to friends or family unless i'm pushed to a corner rite? U think i did the right thing? Wat would u have done if it happened to u?

On a lighter note, i'm back for the weekend in malacca. Went out yum cha wit don, su ling n leo last nite. Cipet don, go get hair cut la, nowadays most rockers also got short hair d. Glam rock is no more :P. I myself am gonna get a haircut later on. Till the next time i blog, cheers!

Tagged by Su Ling~

1.Are u photogenic?

>> Look at my beer pic and tell me :P

2. What time do you go to bed?
>> No earlier then 3 am >.<

3. What was the last thing you did before this?
>> Read todays papers

4. Who’s the one you always meet the most?
>> my housemates/friends at Melati Utama lo, gwen, su ling, leo

5. Who’s the person you’ll call if you need help?
>> depends on wat is my problem

6. What’s on your mind right now ?
>> wtf is happenin with 'people' around me?

7. What do you prefer?american idol/malaysian idol?
>> americans have more class and standard n quality

8. With whom do you wanna be with to have fun?
>> The peeps back home!

9. What movie do u wanna watch now?
>> Casino Royale .. (everyones watched it but me :( ]

10. When was the last time you went out?
>> i AM out now.

11. What do you hate the most for now?
>> Saying things they wanna do or dont wanna do but instead doing the exact opposite of that. Lying.

12. What do you do everyday besides eat & sleep?
>> Blasting my music, playing cards, chattin n occasionally blogging

13. Colors that make you happy ?
>> blue red green white

14. Most fav thing in your room ?
>> my broken acoustic guitar :( [my laptop is in the living room :P]

15. Miss someone?
>> miss the people back home.

16. Plan to buy something?
>> wanna buy harddisk but no money... christmas is around d corner though.. >.<

17. Are you satisfied with your life now?
>> fuck no...

18.Do you like seafood?
>> if i were to die now, my last wish was to have a full spread seafood buffet!!

19.Breakfast or dinner?
>> dinner

20. like chocolates?
>> who doesn't?

21. Do you have a laptop?
>> yeah!

22. What’s your favorite food from fast food?
>> McD's Prosperity Burger! Lovely black pepper!! KFC's Meltz comes in a close second though.. they have Nachos!! *dang.. think bout this till stomach hungry d ><*

23. Cats or dogs?
>> Dogs

24. Salty or sweet?
>> sweet. Too salty wait rambut gugur thn become botak!

25. city or country?

>> city of coz

26. Is kissing normal for your age?
>> it be abnormal if it wasnt.

27. Are you athletic?
>> hell yeah! *check out my arms!* hahahaha..

28. Favourite bands for now?
>> The Killers, Panic! At The Disco

29. Do you have your own cell phone?
>> yesh

30. What do you wear to bed?
>> i sleep topless but not bottomless :P

31.Ever had a crush on a teacher in high school?
>> WTF... no no no.. tat would be soo wrong.... to even think of it ><.. *note : non of the teachers are a day under 30 :P or even worth lookin at*

32. Coke or pepsi?
>> Coke

33. sugar or spice?
>> Everything thats nice!

34. Can you use chopsticks?
>> like Duh~~ ..

35. Do you care about getting good grades?
>> For now, all i care about is passing.

36.Have you ever fallen asleep in class?
>> Never in primary or secondary skol but countless times in college ><

37. Get a job or ask your parents for money?
>> ask parents for now la

38. Is your mom strict?
>> quite

39. Do your parents give you enough privacy?
>> for now though..

40. Do your parents trust you?
>> they trust me enough to not question my whereabouts even if i come back at 6 am

41. Would you ever wanna lose your bestfriend?
>> never ever

42. Does your best friend get on your nerves?
>> once in a blue moon la.. but not serious matter to spat about.

43. Do you make friends quickly?
>> i may seem very 'distant' n quiet when meeting new ppl, but once i get to know them, i'm sure we hit off pretty well .. rite??

44. Do you tell your mom everything?
>> u think i crazy ar??

45. What do you & your parents fight about most?
>> we dont fight.. they nag and i juz use the ' nod head n accept everything' tactic ;)

46. If u love someone & she/he rejected u. What will u do to her/him?
>> hmmm.... probably burn or throw away anything that reminds me of her. haha... kidding. I'd just let it be and MOVE ON. Have to ACCEPT the fact in life that SOME things in life are NOT ment to be rite? if we stay as friends then fine, if we don't then fine also.

47. Can u sing or rap?
>> i can sing but not rap

48. If u have one wish , who would u make ur wife/husband for life?
>> Jessica Alba!! *drools*

49. What do u think bout this survey?
>> ok ok larr..

Tag : Leo, Kat, Lynnie, May (basically everyone who reads :P tagg ur it!)

Of Life n Death

Just a short post this time round. Wanna give Happy Birthday shoutouts to Lynnie, Su Ling, Jo, Wei Nie, Khai Lip , Drew and anyone else i don't remember (hehe.. sorry ya). Thought i might as well do a mass shoutout since u all are havin/had ur birthdays like +- 1 week apart nia. So happy 20th birthday to all of u!! Finally u can join my club! :P.

On a much sadder note, a friend of mine in primary skol n high skol passed away few days ago due to an accident. He was also 20. Deepest condolences to the family of Ahmad Tarmizi. Although i'm not close with mizi (dats wat we called him), but we did have good times togather especially when playin football in secondary skol and practically playin all sorts of stuff in primary skol. Ur presence will be deeply missed by those around u dude. May u rest in peace.

Life is really precious ppl, some are celebratin thier 20th yr on this planet while one left on his 20th. So cherish every moment u have and be thankful for all the things u have, all the ppl around u, be happy with ur life no matter wat the situation is. Don't be sad, sulk or mad over things in life cos u never know when urs will be over and u may regret not making urs a better life. So ppl, live life to the fullest n have no regrets!

Peace out!