Warning : slightly/partly emo post ahead. u have been warned!!
Rite, i think as far as this year or any other that has passed, this month is clearly been laid wit so much stuff that sucks, it even made me believe tis month is a doomed month >.< ... rite rite.. lets see.. over the past several weeks ppl around me or me have experienced : breakups wit bf/gf, fiancees ; death in the family or friends ; accidents ; strained relationships with family/friends . Sure it may sound normal, but as far as i'm concerned, it has never been so concentrated like this my entire life >.< .. rite.. screw this goddamn month. Next month, the only tears n joy i will shed, is for football :P.
As far as my last post is concernend, i suppose i'm dealing with it wit the right manner.. For all i know, it might just be an infratuation rite? Certainly dont wanna let history repeat itself. But sumhow rite.. i duno why, i feel like im being to possesive or over demanding on certain things ( like why no sms, why leave so early, i want tis /tat ..yadda yadda) even if we're jz frens. I know its wrong, i know im at no right to do such things.. but i justs do it .. haha.. so much for the Nike tagline eh. Rite more bertekun and bertekad to stop this stupid n foolish me >.< ..
Oh, and what issit wit ppl hiding thier emotions becos of thier pride? I'm really not targetting anyone if particular so here are my 2cents (maybe its worth less) on it : I've always said, emotions n feelings are not ment to be hidden, esp if lets say, u are keeping sumthing for sumone, but ur too afraid/proud to tell em. Why? Cos u'll never know wat might happen if u did, if it turns out for better or for worse rite? What if u regret not sayin wat u wanted to , and one day look back n say to urself "if only i had said that to him/her" . I've seen this happen too many times , well ok , mostly on tv :P , but my point is, its not worth it keeping ur feelings from someone. If u hate their guts, jz walk up to thm n say " dude, i dislike the way ur doin things, plz do sumtihn bout it" or if u like someone ... well, those words to say are pretty simple rite? I know i would tell tat sumone how i felt bout them, be it good or bad, well, not all the time but certainly more often then not. Sometimes, stepping on our pride or facing ur fear is the best possible thing tat we can do in order to get some words across.
On another note, i think i might be goin back up to kl this weekend. College is starting, although i still dont know where i stand, i figured it be best if i go up there n seek assistance from the office.Got another pep talk from parents, so i guess for real this time, i'm really gonna get my head down n pass every freakin paper. Hmm.. maybe my head will be on football during tat month la.. but jz for tat month >.<
Well, theres about 9 more days to a new month.. wonder wat other fucked up shit can happen.Btw, jz realized that hotmail has upgraded its capacity to 25mb.. yay.. at least whn someone sends me those emails attached wit pics up to 2-3 mb, it wont be rejected.. its still far off from yahoo mail or gmail, but hey, its a start rite? Small steps are better thn none taken .. Oh, tat applies to everything i've said ya :P
